| I've forgotten about xanga for quite some time. I was a bit surprised at myself when I realized that b/c I used to check xanga a couple times a week. But now the two groups of people I kept in touch with through xanga have pretty much moved on in real life and online. Since I've been gone, I am still trying to figure out my path in life. In the last year or so, I've come to realize that I have been very selfish the last few years. Yes, I spent a lot of time on extracurricular activites. But a lot of it was for my self-insterest. In a way, it excluded some people in my life. Some things you can just press "Undo". With relationships, it doesn't always work that way after going downhill for so long . I just wonder how do you fix it.
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| Since I've been gone...
- Pretty much settled on not going to med school. Deferred admission. Mom wants me to still go.
- Switched to grad school or job path. Uncertain about plans for summer and afterwards. While it sucks to not know what's going on, I am ok with that b/c I don't think I really want to have the life of a doctor.
- I've been thinking quite abit about my future. Before this last couple months, I generally thought of it in terms of my career. Sometimes life with significant other perhaps. With med school and other stuff going on, it made me realize that it's not just going to be me. For awhile, I know that I have my own sense of selfishness. It just occurred to me that I will have to take care of my parents somehow. Part of my decision with med school deals with the fact that I feel after you earn a certain amount of money, it doesn't matter anymore if you don't get to spend it. Now, money is important for me to support others' well being. Puts more into my drive to be successful.
- Besides med/grad/job, my senior year's been taken up by CUSA alot. Lots of projects. less time with my usual group of friends. sometimes i try to refrain from talking about cusa when i am with some of them b/c i know i talk about it quite a bit. cusa really took up a lot more of me this year than i expected. it's also given me quite a bit on event planning, leadership skills, and some on business management. people who knew me from freshmen year might have been surprised to find out that i became president b/c some of them could feel the sense of insecurity i had around Hong Kong people and my Americanized self was out of place.
- The reason I became president was really b/c cusa was going to die if no one steps up. I thought it would be a shame if it did. So i took it and gave it my vision. From what's been going on this year, cusa might pull through the next year. I do have more faith b/c I know that at least some ppl do care about cusa. As long as this happens and for the years to come, it was worth it. Tomorrow we having interviews and officers vote. Hopefully, next week we would have made some more money to pay our debts and do a handover to the new board. So I guess I just wrote my farewell speech.
That's all for now.
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| Now that I have this chance.
It sucks that I am thinking about changing my career path now. Is money overated? Is youth more important? Is your future career more important or the opportunity to spend time with significant other and building a family?
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| I read an article a week or two ago about an illegal immigrant from Mexico rescuing a boy shortly after entering the border. I thought about post it but didn't. I think that many first generation immigrants in the US would understand my sentiment in sharing this story. The men and the women who struggled to come to this country often sacrifice a lot for a better life and a better future for their kids.
I came across another article tonight, which follows up on the incident.
This article is about the man's account of the event: http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/22013748/
I hope this story provides a different side of the migrant story to people.
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